The last year of my life...

Originally Posted September 10th 2007

I cant help and feel that this year just wont stop.
It has been going on for far too long now and well I cant handle it anymore.
This year has been a far too full year of sickness.
People get sick. I get that. But, people I know and love dont normally get this sick.
And personally i'm done with it.
It dosnt seem to be fair.
I cant help but cry. I have cryed so much this year. More than anyone should.
My grandfather got sick and i spent a month at a hospital. That was a new experience for me. I hadn't had to deal with death before. At the age of 20 or 21 whatever I am too young for that.
Than Elmo got sick and hes been in the hospital for months now.
I am sick of doctors and hospitals and sickness. And I am sad. And frustrated. And angry.
Now, My dad is at the hospital having tests done and they think he has Leukimia or some kind of other cancer.
And I am scared and done with it all.
WHY wont it just STOP?
My dad is only 50. He is so young. He needs to see me grow up and have children and play with them and LIVE.
This dosn't make sense and I dont know how much more I can handle.
It might be nothing, but things are pointing towards something.
I'm not writting this for sympathy or comments or anything. I just need to get it out.