I am ridiculous....

Okay so yes, I blogged yesterday. But, I am going to try and be better at this.


So I have decided that I am a bit of a mess. I like me but, everyone has a thing or two they could improve about themselves and I have at least that.


So.....I am making a list.


Revisiting a quote from yesterdays blog "I think you`re the least fucked up person I`ve ever met and that may be as close to the real thing as I`m ever gonna get" -Ani Difranco


-We are all messed up....in one way or another and that is what makes us, us.


I am a bit of a hopeless romantic. I have been morphed into that my whole life. Whether through one too many fairy tales or watching my parents. I want to believe in good people. And, I always look for the best in everyone. I am not stupid...maybe a little naive by choice. And, to tell you the truth I would have it no other way.


I love love. I know that sounds nuts. But, I see love in everything. From family, friends, people walking down the street, children, and all of those small things that we look past everyday. I cant imagine the world without it.


Back to the quote....I don't want perfection the imperfections are what make us beautiful. What I do know is I do want a lot of things. And, my standards are high. Maybe unreachable. But, I don't plan to settle. Life takes you where it takes you, and where it takes me will be alright.


What I do know is that I need to start opening myself up to the possibility of love ( the romantic kind-I have the other stuff covered). Because, if I don't I am the one sabotaging what could or could not be.


I at least owe it to myself to take a chance.


I say no to everyone. A while ago, I decided that I was going to start saying yes to everybody. Like any and everyone who asked me out. I never put this in practice (I am so glad)....and I have decided I do not want to. But, what I have decided to do is at least say yes more often...or once....who knows. But, I am as of now opening my mind to the possibility and not completely shutting it out.


I don't know....this is a ridiculous blog...but....it was me thinking out loud. I am not sure I am going to post this.


On to something else entirely.


Girls (you know who you are) you make me laugh.


Bets also make me laugh. And you being right is just funny.


I see God in some of the oddest places. The places where most church people would think I am crazy. I think that is one way the church has it wrong. I always see him in this....


http://www.famecast.com/backstage/artist.php?artist_id=3151


I am craving and also absolutely love and miss this....


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fQ2K7uCs71I&feature=related ***seriously click on it...you wont be disappointed :)


Marci- I am questioning my sanity.


Mr. Vatter I am so glad you are coming to the Sleep Over.....excuse me Slumber Party.


The final day of Audition Summer Camp is tomorrow! YAY!


I don't even want to know....stop telling me details.....


ewwwwwwwwwwwwwww...not cool.


The game is more interesting than I thought it was going to be.


I need a Disney day soon.....and frolicking pictures.


It's funny the things we remember.... and the things we do not.

I miss you. Allot.


Thank you for being honest....I am so glad that some people still are.


No way...okay this game is far more interesting than I thought.


Brother I miss you. It was lovely to talk to you yesterday.


I love pajamas.

SAK soon anyone....with the dandelion cafe.....

Have so much fun at the beach Miss. Tara.

Unbelievable...that....was ridiculous...

You are not less than....

I am going to bed now....maybe more tomorrow.

-hd